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Saturday, January 28, 2017

Hope again.
Change is good. It is also confronting.
I turned myself inside out to make circumstances better fitting my situation.
But now I find that all the improvements for the benefit of us all; really, my whole family is better off, make me face my disability more.

I could blame my old unfit way of living for everything that wasn’t possible.
Now I have nothing but my own handicap to consider.

Starting from scratch.


Thursday, January 12, 2017

Illness.
‘That which does not kill us, makes us stronger.’ Nietzsche, probably. Good enough.
It was the favorite quote of my Grandmother, she knew all about it. I know a bit about it in the meantime.

I’m tasting the thought, trying to comprehend it. To find out how I can learn from it, how it would help me get through from one day to the next.

Is it easier to believe what one cannot understand? 
I am not accustomed to that.


Friday, January 6, 2017

Knowing.
Gaining knowledge is fun. Sharing it is even more a joyride. Communicating it is a bliss. Feeling the closeness of a kindred spirit is great.

Not being able to exchange thoughts, feelings, experiences makes one feel very lonely.

Trying to hibernate myself till better times.

Tuesday, January 3, 2017

Tomorrow.
A new life begins tomorrow. A fresh start. A clean slate.
I would like to be like a spider or a snake; throwing my old skin off. Envelopped in a shiny just out skin.

Conditioning myself into a better frame of the mind.