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Tuesday, November 29, 2016

Conclusion.
Ultimately life is a private matter, death is a private matter too. If you’re lucky, you can hop little islands of understanding that connect you to another person.

I had a lover once; I still remember the void I felt between our palms when holding hands.
I remember how happy I was held firmly in the next hand.
It is extraordinary; being touched by another soul and being able to reach another individual.

Living from one moment of proximity to the next.


Monday, November 21, 2016

Laughter.
I have never laughed as much as now in my whole life. It’s better to have fun instead of crying.
The grin on my face conceals weeping. Sometimes.

Laughing works liberating.
On the inside it keeps things in perspective.

Going strong.


Monday, November 14, 2016

Fear.
Afraid of losing my dignity. My self-esteem is not low.
Trying to hold on to my self-worth as if it was something one can possess.

It is better not to be trapped in my own head.
Not to let the disease confine me.

It is an ongoing fight.


Wednesday, November 9, 2016

Sure.
Every time I’m hit below the belt, I know I’m right.
I’m learning to be silent. I don’t have to fight back.

First I had to stand up for myself more, life taught me to do that. Now I need to learn to let it go.
Look inside more and perceive more of the world around me.

Being sure.


Monday, November 7, 2016

Regret.
Being regretful is a waste of time.
Things that happened in the past cannot be undone.
The only possibility is to make use of the opportunity to learn from past mistakes. Never to make them again.

Trying to appreciate and embrace life, even in lesser times.
This is the meaning of ‘carpe diem’ for me.